Hello all you Kings & Queens of social media, we are at the start of a new year with new goals we all hope to achieve, new resolutions we won’t keep & a fresh start but for me starting the new year is often very stressful & overwhelming. Twenty-eighteen has been a year of self discovery, growing & learning to let things go but I must say the few days leading up to January 1st, my anxiety level were at an all time high. I live in a part of the US where my city falls behind most of the world time wise that is. When most of you have celebrated, we’re still waiting to count down & there’s my anxiety falls into play. The good news no disaster nor looming doom, no nothing really just another routine type of a day. I ranged in the new year just as I have for the past ten years celebrating with friends very low-key usual finger foods, playing games & getting hammered. I don’t know why I place so much on new years when I always survive the event.
Second Day of 2019; I find myself doing what I did in twenty-eighteen getting ready to return to work. I take vacation three times a year, once in the spring for my birthday, once in the summer for my best friend birthday & end of December for the Holidays. I spent my ten vacation planted at home except for NYE. Now back in the grind of things I get up & ready for work. I take my shower enjoying the hot drops of water trickling down my skin giving such a calming of a relaxing peace. Closing my eyes & letting the beads of water take over like enjoying a favorite song. My mind is cleared not a single thought fills my head. Out of the shower & putting on some clothes, as I stand looking at myself in the mirror I see my colors appears. Fade faint colors that comes into view in seconds. These colors will be my guidance for the day. Today its pink & that’s a good pink is strong color in the sense that my heart is light but my amour is strong. Armed with my coffee & a bite to eat I’m ready to face the world.
Feeling The Spiritual World; I believe in the spiritual world. In this colors are representation of the being. Think of it like putting a mood ring. The energy from your body influences the colors of the ring. The darker the colors the more intense your spirit is & of course the lighter the color the lighter the spirit. We are share a symbolic relationship with nature, the earth & universe. Most people aren’t in tuned to their spirit. Take a look at yourself if you’re wearing dark-colored clothing at the end of the day think about how you felt throughout the day. Think about this, are the colored clothing a reflection of your feelings? Something to thing about. You may think I’m nuts but as the saying goes “it’s better to believe in something then nothing at all”. I’m a believer because it makes me feel good & what’s wrong with that.
Fear, Uncertainty & Doubt; The second day of new year is going smoothly much more than I anticipated at the Fortress of Destitute. I guess I should explain why I have this view of my job in this way but for all tense & purposes I want to stay positive but you can use your imagination. Nothing has changed. I put all that emotional nonsense in my head filling my heart up with doubt & fear but I imagine that I was fearful of a future I can’t control. There it is kings & queens. There’s my problem I am a control freak. I’m learning that I should invest my time & energy into the things I can control & focus less on trying to control a future that hasn’t happen yet. Maybe if I did that the stresses in my life will be few. I need to stop allowing my fear to continue to take control. Ding dong 2018 is gone but not forgotten not the lessons, not the love I found & that is a good thing.