Hello all you masters and mistress of words, here we are again on the mass shooting merry-go-round. This time America got a triple. Two mass shootings within hours of each other and a week from the Gilroy Garlic Festival shooting. I’m not going to give a lecture on the importance of gun control because if you read this blog, you’ll see that this debate has been going since the 1966 starting with the shooting at University of Texas.
This blog showcast many of the heartbreaking mass shootings from Columbine to the most tragic Sandy Hook. I often ask the question “how many people have to die before our Government will act. With each administration taking to social media giving a heartfelt condolences, no one bothers to actually come up with more stricter gun laws to prevent more mass shootings.
No trouble individual should has such easy access to guns. Maybe its up to us to take action to help prevent another loss.
Hello all you masters of words, today I’m feeling a bit down and under the weather. Thisweek has been very tough in fact, this month has been very tough. I feel like my words aren’t being heard and I’m falling deeper into my depression. I put on a brave face, its all an act. Whenever someone ask how I am doing my generic response is “I’m doing just fine” clearly not true. I should get the Academy Award for best fake-smile. I’m far from being fine. I’m far from being normal, I mean what is normal? The truth is I’m scared, I feel beat-up and I’m worn-out. I am terrified of the things I can’t control. I blogged about this before where there’s such anxiety of things that haven’t happened that I spend weeks trying to control. It’s like your on a train the deer on the track you see it but this little time to react. Just buckle up and hope for the best. I’m so worn-out I been play at this game with a defeater’s attitude. The constant fighting is wearing me down, trying to be everything to everyone. Struggling is a term that is often used when describing an bipolar depression episode, however, I am beyond struggling I’m drowning. No rock I can crawl under will help hide the pain I am in.
Sadness vs Depression
Sadness vs DepressionMost people who don’t understand the difference between depression and sadness often get the two confused. It’s very difficult to articulate what an episode is like. When you are in the grips of a full on bipolar episode it’s difficult to navigate the muddy waters of dangerous. These dangerous waters consists of emotions of feeling angry, helpless, guilt and for some ending it all. When you are sad you get a little down but you are able to bounce back. Depression is quite the opposite. Your dealing with multitude of emotions all at once and your whole being can’t quite get a grip on reality. Basicly is like a skydriver taking that jump confident the shoot will open only realizing halfway down your in trouble and there’s no one there to help break the fall. This is how I been feeling lately. This feeling is what I call “the uncontrollable factor“.
Hello all you wizards of words, it’s been a while since I blog. Well not true, I write everyday but a lot of my material doesn’t see the light of day. This thought, however, I been working on for a while now. I finally got the idea incoherent sentences because not everyone speaks Sunny Larue right. With this blog post I’m taking a different approach. Many of my ideas for a blog are inspired by my journal entry. When I tackled this reincarnation, I promised to be truthful in regards to my mental disorder or “Chum”. In fact, to be as brutally honest not matter how hard the topic is. Well what’s more honest then journal entries. I been holding back this side of my Chum. It’s very scary place the the dark side of my Chum. It’s a place of the unknown with little to no control. The links throughout this post are materials that helped me get through this episode. This post is from my journal entry titled: “The High Card” May 30, 2019
I often quote famous movies that inspire my soul, for example “Let Good Thoughts Be Your Sword and Shield” Vida Boheme Too Wong Foo Thanks For Everything Julie Newmar. Or “I’mSorry But Earth Is Closed Today” Iron Man/Tony Stark Avengers Infinity War.In some strange way these quotes often tell a tale of how I’m feeling, you know, very relatable. Stick with me on this. I promise it will make sense in the end. Hello I’m Sunny Larue known as the Professional Martini Drinking Blogger and today’s blog post is inspired by relatable quotes.
Christmas is that time of year where everything feels nice and cozy. People tend to be in a better mood. Yes of course there’s those who are a drag & those who are crooks but for the most part Christmas brings out that inner playful kid in all of us. Beside the rush of tackling the Christmas shopping, black Friday & cyber Monday preparing Christmas dinner is on everyone minds. As I put together my Christmas dinner menu, I got to thinking if I could have the ultimate Christmas dinner who would I invite as dinner guests?
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Original schedule post date: March 5, 2020
I have come up with clever names to identify many faces of my bipolar disorder. I come to realize that having metal disorder is scary to some people. It doesn’t mean the person who is struggling is a bad person nor does it mean that people don’t care. It means having a disorder like bipolar is something that is unknown and misunderstood. I find that by giving my disorder a name makes the disease more human like therefore people are willing to listen and understand and not be so judgmental. When I wrote this blog post I was working at an office environment that was very unhealthy. These thoughts were written as a result of a lunch date. I felt I needed to be transparent and honest if I was to peruse a heathy relationship. I’m lucky to have a new friend who is compassionate and is interested in learning more about the struggles of mental health. De-army, defusing along with a little humor can prevent an uncomfortable situation.
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The past eighteen months has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions. As twenty-twenty-one comes to an end, I thought about my last blog post of the year. It’s a toss up between my Chum, Covid-19 or the major events of twenty-twenty-one that had my emotions spinning. I decided to be very candid and try to articulate this rollercoaster ride of a year. I hit many peaks some brought on by the events of the year and some brought on by personal events.
Hello all you wizards of words, I’m Sunny Larue known as the Professional Martini Drinking Blogger and today’s blog post is inspired by the constant rollercoaster ride of bipolarism. We all saw the “Vraylar” commercial; (Vraylar is not a sponsor or affiliated with this website and blog) you know the one about the ups and downs of mood swings associated with depression and bipolarism using rollercoaster to articulate the behavior. That’s exactly how I feel. Imagine you’re at an amusement park and the tallest, fastest rollercoaster is this 3 minute giga-coaster with speeds of one hundred mph. You’re anticipating a ride that you think you’re in control of but in reality the whole experience is out of your control.
As a child I thought my big lips were my downfall. Everyday I would get teased about the size of my lips. As far back as I can remember, as I grew my lips grew two size larger. In class I would sit and daydream about having plastic surgery to have them deflated. Momma use say “oh they’re all jealous because God gifted you these lips.” Jealous huh? It doesn’t feel that way when the kids point and laugh. I was called every name in the book every derogatory clever name created I was called.
If you have an Avengers / Marvel mad child like me (or again, like me, you yourself are a huge Marvel fan!) and can’t quite make it to Avengers Campus this year due to restrictions and being stuck in the UK, there are some great days out you can go on right here in the UK to see either Marvel filming locations for some of their blockbusters or just really fun Marvel themed attractions. Here’s a list of a few ideas that would be great for over the summer holidays.
Madame Tussaud’s Blackpool
If you follow me on Instagram and/or TikTok, you’ll have seen that we recently visited Madame Tussaud’s Blackpool for their Marvel exhibition. The rest of Madame Tussaud’s was fun, however Vincent and his friend were only 6 so didn’t know most of the celebrities that the waxworks were based on so they really did enjoy the…