Twenty-nineteen started with an uncertainty I had no idea of what’s to come but I spent the last few weeks of twenty-eighteen stressing about it. I don’t know why but I have this sick obsession of trying to control the future. I worry about things and events that haven’t happened yet. The anxiety is quite overwhelming but what makes this worse is that I put myself in this position. I willingly make myself go nuts trying to control something that is uncontrollable.
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Hello Kings and Queens of the blogging community, wow last week been one hell of a ride. Trying to play catch-up it’s very dawnty to say the lease. This past week I had a birthday to work through. I always get very emotional around my birthday. Just found out a friend passed away. He was truly a kind soul with a big heart. There’s not enough words on this planet that I can use to describe how brilliant this person was. Still dealing with the aftermath of work place bullying. All the while trying to keep my “Chum” and his band mates “Manic” “Doubt” and “Panic” at bay. Yes its an overwhelming week of highs and lows and despite it all surprisingly I survived.
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I honestly don’t know what to say. I don’t have any clever words of wisdom nothing but just feeling numb. I’m not particularly sad but I’m not happy either. Last week was a living nightmare and the energy that was drained from my body had taken a heavy toll on me. So much is going on in my world my job situation, my writing, my future all this is weighting heavy on my mind. It’s like the twilight zone has taken hold of my body throwing me in an ongoing loop of noise filled numbness.
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