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ADDICTION

If you are experiencing thoughts of suicide or self harm call 911 immediately or contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255

INTRODUCTION

Hello all you wizards of words, today’s blog is inspired by “Addiction”. There are many different faces of addiction.  The two common known types of addiction are Substance and Behavioral.  This blog will focus on the behavioral side. When a person struggling with mental health a lot of bad behavior arise. There’s too much noise, too much dark. It’s very difficult to turn on the lights and keep them on. For this very reason some turns to drink and drugs. Others turns to spending or develop unhealthy relationships with food or self image. Like with any illness, understanding the triggers, the cause and condition is key.

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Never Be Afraid To Ask For Help
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MIRROR MIRROR

Introduction

Spinning around on the turntable, as we (my friend and I) sit listening to High N’ Dry album by Def Leppard in celebration of a new 2020 world tour featuring the reunion of Motley Crue and Poison, Mirror Mirror, Look Into My Eyes comes on and we’re in awl of the amazing sound blaring from the speakers.  Joe’s sings “Gonna have to smash the glass”, my buddy says to me “it’s a fool who can admit defeat.” My response is “if this is true then why do we run from our reflection in the mirror?” Hello all you Santa’s little helpers today’s blog is inspired by Def Leppard’s song Mirror Mirror Look Into My Eyes and why we run from our reflection in the mirror.  There are many reasons why we run but the main reason is we don’t like to face the truth.

High N’ Dry (1981)

Def Leppard
“Mirror, Mirror (Look Into My Eyes)”
Mirror mirror
Just watchin’ with your eye of glass
You’re just a fortune wheel
With something that I wanna ask
Mirror mirror
Got my fate lyin’ in your hands
You’re the fool, you’re the juggler
Hangman and lover, you’re not like no other
Take a look into my eyes
Tell me what you see
Take a look into my eyes
Tell me is it true?
Take a look into my eyes
Oh when I look at you
Take a look into my eyes
Tell me is it me?
Is it really me?
Mirror mirror
Gotta know just what you see
My crystal ball
You’re lookin’ so sly and so sleazy
Mirror mirror
Hangin’ there with that crack in your eye
You make me stumble, make me blind
Time after time and line by line
[Repeat Chorus]
Mirror mirror
Oh tell me
You’re the fool, you’re the juggler
I ain’t met a lover, you’re like no other
Take a look into my eyes
Tell me what you see
Take a look into my eyes
Tell me is it true?
Take a look into my eyes
Oh it just can’t last
Take a look into my eyes
Gonna have to smash the glass
Take a look into my eyes
Take a look into my eyes
Take a look
Take a look into my eyes
Oh yeah
Take a look into my eyes
Take a look into my eyes
Take a look into my eyes
Take a look into my eyes
Take a look
Take a look into my eyes
Look into my eyes
Take a look into my eyes
Tell me if it’s me
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, baby, baby, baby

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Can’t Stop Running

We run from the abuse. We run because of the hurt. We run to escape the pain of living. We drown our sorrows with drugs, drink and other bad behaviors. We run because it’s easy. Face it no one willingly accepts the hard way but we run into situations that isn’t the best taking a lifetime to learn the lesson. We don’t stop to think “is this what I should be doing?” It’s hard to hold the mirror up and actually love the person staring back.

Pump 1989

Janie’s Got A Gun
Aerosmith
Dum, dum, dum, honey what have you done?
Dum, dum, dum it’s the sound of my gun.
Dum, dum, dum, honey what have you done?
Dum, dum, dum it’s the sound Janie’s got a gun
Janie’s got a gun
Her whole world’s come undone
From lookin’ straight at the sun
What did her daddy do?
What did he put you through?
They said when Janie was arrested
they found him underneath a train
But man, he had it comin’ Now that Janie’s got a gun
she ain’t never gonna be the same.
Janie’s got a gun, Janie’s got a gun
Her dog day’s just begun
Now everybody is on the run
Tell me now it’s untrue.
What did her daddy do?
He jacked a little bitty baby
The man has got to be insane
They say the spell that he was under the lightning and the
thunder knew that someone had to stop the rain
Run away, run away from the pain yeah, yeah yeah yeah
Run away run away from the pain yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Run away, run away, run, run away
Janie’s got a gun
Janie’s got a gun
Her dog day’s just begun
Now everybody is on the run
What did her daddy do?
It’s Janie’s last I.O.U.
She had to take him down easy and put a bullet in his brain
She said ’cause nobody believes me.
The man was such a sleeze.
He ain’t never gonna be the same.
Run away, run away from the pain yeah, yeah
Run away run away from the pain yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Run away, run away, run, run away
Janie’s got a gun
Janie’s got a gun
Janie’s got a gun
Everybody is on the run

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Facing The Flaws

Facing up to flaws that every human processes is down right scary especially for those who suffer from mental health. Speaking from personal experience, I sometimes see an ugly reflection. Sometimes when I look at my reflection I see sorrow, pain, hurt and distrust. I don’t know why that is. I went from being in a bubble, to introvert to a social person and to have this view is really iscine. I do have low self esteem but not in the way most views self esteem. My Achilles heel is my Chum.  I believe wholeheartedly that relationships and my Chum is a cocktail not worth drinking. No man on this planet would ever want to be in a relationship with such an ugly disturbed person. No one would want to have a friendship with someone who can’t properly articulate coherent sentences. When I express this side of my Chum to family and friends I get this “it’s not rejection because of your looks or Chum but you are intimidating and strong willed and most people have a hard time dealing with that.” Really? The truth is I’m bipolar, my highs and lows are a daily struggle.  One day I see beauty the next I see ugly. I also know that what you put out in the universe that’s what people see and react to. It’s a matter of what mask to wear when trying to run from the reflection in the mirror. 

“Run Boy Run”
Woodkid
Run boy run! This world is not made for you
Run boy run! They’re trying to catch you
Run boy run! Running is a victory
Run boy run! Beauty lays behind the hills
Run boy run! The sun will be guiding you
Run boy run! They’re dying to stop you
Run boy run! This race is a prophecy
Run boy run! Break out from society
Tomorrow is another day
And you won’t have to hide away
You’ll be a man, boy!
But for now it’s time to run, it’s time to run!
Run boy run! This ride is a journey too
Run boy run! The secret inside of you
Run boy run! This race is a prophecy
Run boy run! And disappear in the trees
Tomorrow is another day
And you won’t have to hide away
You’ll be a man, boy!
But for now it’s time to run, it’s time to run!
Tomorrow is another day
And when the night fades away
You’ll be a man, boy!
But for now it’s time to run, it’s time to run!

Until Next Time….

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SAFE TRAVELS

Introduction

When planning for a trip do you cover all bases?  What do you do when you’re overseas and in a jam requiring medical assistance? Most people who have mental illness/disorder or physical medical needs aren’t prepared when traveling abroad. Hello all you rockers of words, today’s blog is inspired by a conversation that points out what the lack of preparedness when traveling.  A few days ago I had an interesting conversation about travel, mental health and the medical profession. I mentioned to my buddy who lives in Scotland that I will be paying a visit in Spring. As the conversation goes on I asked is there a Starbucks, US banking institutions like Chase, Wells Fargo or Capital One. I also asked if there’s stores like Walmart or Target. My buddy reply is yes yes and yes but you forgot the most important thing medical. He began to teach me about NHS (National Healthcare Service). NHS is free healthcare provided by the Scottish government. He gave some interesting tips and what I can expect should my Chum decides to take over. Under the NHS everything is covered including mental health services. Prescription is an out of pocket expense and not covered. This intrigued me peaking my interest. In researching I found there’s a lot of countries that supports free medical programs or services that includes services for mental illness.

The Kelpies, Scotland

This blog is not politically motivated. This blog is simply informational. I have to admit, I have traveled thousands of miles and in my journeys I discovered some type of free healthcare services for mental and physical wellbeing. European countries like Italy, Ireland, England, Wales has some form of a national health service that give free coverage of medical, dental and vision. Most NHS requires out of pocket expense for prescriptions. Of course if you’re covered by private insurance it’s wise to contact a travel agent, state department (or equivalent) or healthcare provider to know your options.  Here are some examples of what to expect while traveling.

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The Great White North “Canada”

Canada has a type of universal healthcare Medicare.  However, if you are not a permanent resident you are not eligible for free medical and is responsible for medical services performed. It’s true that thirty percent of Canadians medical is paid by the private sector with a supplementary or secondary insurance that covers the cost of prescription drugs, dental and vision. Canada do offer various healthcare programs for its residence. Those who are on a short term basis is required to purchase “Travel Insurance”.

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The Land Down Under “Australia”

Australia version of “Medicare” is a program of the Department of Human Services and is free for most residents. Medicare is funded by Medicare Levy with two percent of the population paying taxes into this levy. Those residents who earn higher wages are required to pay an additional levy (Medicare Levy Surcharge) if they don’t have private insurance. Residents with certain medical conditions, foreign residence and some low income earners are not eligible for Medicare and may apply for an exemption from paying the levy. It’s not clear of what percentage is mental illness is covered under this program most likely it’s a case by case basis.

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US Bound

The US has its versions of a semi free program like medical, medicare and Obamacare but these programs is a start but most foreign visitors who aren’t legal citizens or residents are not eligible. You still need some type of private insurance to maintain your health. Unfortunately insurance has many avenues that gets tricky like knowing the difference between “PPO” or “HMO”. This is where “Travel Insurance” comes in handy.  There are many different policies to choose from. It’s true that the US has the best medical but without any insurance to help that cost comes at a hefty price.  If uninsured, a trip to the emergency room can run you into the thousands. Travel Insurance is offered by many companies it can get overwhelming. This is where research is helpful. If you have private insurance speak with your healthcare provider to find out if the policy is covered in foreign countries. Those who are in therapy speak to your medical team or Doctor or Therapist to see if they can recommend someone for the length of your trip. Always follow up with your healthcare provider after getting recommendations from your medical team.

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Conclusion

This is an aspect of travel that most jetsetters don’t take into account. I spoke with my medical team and my Doctor gave me suggestions on therapist to contact while in Scotland.  She also gave me information on where to get prescriptions, and what hospital to attend in case of emergency. Most people diagnosed with an illness or disorder don’t realize the importance of having a wider safety net.  Help is available and don’t be afraid to seek help no matter where you are.

Until next time….

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ALL MIXED UP

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Introduction

Hello all your rockstars of words, today’s blog post is inspired by my love of music. I use music as a tool to keep my Chum quiet. Drowning out the noise that my Chum often provides when he’s knocking at the stage door, this particular memory is a good one. The Cars is my first musical love. The song All Mixed Up is my introduction to this great band. I had the pleasure of seeing them for the first time at eleven in 1982 at the US Festival. I enjoyed their live performance a total of seven times each appearance better than the last. I often blog about the impact Def Leppard and Franz Ferdinand music has had in my life but it all started with The Cars.

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ALL ABOUT DAVE

Introduction

Hello all you boo-static masters of words, today’s blog comes from one of my favorite independant actors and human activist Dave Vescio. Influenced by Dave’s twitter account, I thought it would be fun to answer some of Dave’s most intriguing questions. But before diving into these questions, here’s a little background on how Dave’s rags to wealth story came to light influencing a generation.

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ONE DARK PLACE

WARNING: This post is of an opinion and based on personal experience. Sunny Larue is not a licensed physician or licensed therapist. The information used for this blog is on research basis only. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts or self harm, dial 911 or local emergency operator or contact National Suicide Prevention Hotline at (800) 273-8255. NSPH services are open to the public 24/7. If you are struggling with mental illness, mental disorder or know someone who is struggling and need more information or assistance contact your local Church, Mental Health Clinic, local Hospital or Healthcare Provider.

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Introduction

Hello all you beautiful words commanders, this is typically how I start off my blogs but with this post I want to try a different approach. This blog will showcase five short stories. These stories are a reflection of a person’s fight for survival in a world of darkness of gray. The lines between reality aren’t blurred but the interception of  one’s idea of what reality is. Like a series of freeways or highways that leads you back home. Feedback is always welcome but keep in mind this particular blog is intense. These stories are based upon real people who reads my blogs. All I ask is to be respectful. 

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THE JOKER AFFECT

WARNING: this blog post is of the opinion of my own. I am not a licensed physician. I do not give out any medical advice. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts or self harm call 911 or contact The National Suicide Prevention Hotline at (800) 273-8255.

Introduction

Why do we show so much passion for super villainous characters? Maybe it’s because we see a little of ourselves in the developmental of their story. I find it interesting the most villains don’t start out horrifying scary. There’s a backstory to the madness that usually find our antagonist struggling with some type of mental illness. Unlike our hero whose moral fabric is the driving force. It’s an delegate balance between the two whose common ground is both struggling with some form of mental illness or disorder. It’s the villains backstory that drives this point. Separating the human aspect from the morally corrupt you find the bullying affect that we all can relate to. We willingly root for a successful outcome for these villains even knowing how horribly bad it all turns out. We all have a little Joker in us.

WARNING: The Joker movie is very graphic and display disturbing scenes that can be triggers for an episodes. Exercise caution when viewing.

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WHAT COLOR ARE YOU?

WARNING: this blog post is of the opinion of my own. I am not a licensed physician. I do not give out any medical advice. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts or self harm call 911 or contact The National Suicide Prevention Hotline at (800) 273-8255.

Introduction

What color are you? Are you pink for breast cancer? Black for fallen officer?  Are you Green for Mental Health or Purple for Suicide? It's hard to tell these days. Me I'm for all the ribbons.

Hello all you wizards of words, today’s blog post is inspired by my tweet rant. October is breast cancer month, although I am sympathetic to anyone who been stricken with any type of cancer mental health is just as important. On October 1st all social media outlets, daytime talk show an news outlets showed their support in solidarity by wearing pink and or wearing the pink ribbon. Not once in all of September the month for National Suicide Prevention did any of these outlets wear the ribbon or the color in show of support.

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What Color Are You?

September is National Suicide Prevention Month. It’s a time for those who supports those who are suffering from mental health illness disorder or those who struggles with thoughts of suicide or self harming by reaching out. Giving people who feel their only option is suicide a chance to seek help in a healthy environment. It’s a beautiful community that I’m grateful to be apart of because I make no apology for sharing my and my family struggles with mental health. As I discovered, each illness comes with a ribbon as a symbol of solidarity and support. I showcase below what some of the ribbon and colors represents;

YELLOW represents “Prisoners of War” (POWs)

RED represents “blood cancer” and “heart disease”

BLACK represents “in mourning” or “fallen officer”

GREEN represents “bipolar” or “mental illness”

For Awareness Ribbons and their symbolism

Purple represents National Suicide Prevention which is the subject of this blog post.

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This Angers Me

I am damn angry that National Suicide Prevention Month didn’t get the same spotlight as Breast Cancer is getting right now. Everyone has shown support by wearing the color pink and the ribbon. The View, Ellen, Wendy Williams, The Talk, The Real, CNN, MSNBC, Fox, ABC, NBC, CBS, Iheartradio, Google, Facebook, AT&T and Amazon show an ounce of interest. These outlets didn’t wear the green ribbon for mental health nor the purple ribbon for national suicide prevention nor have any survivors or people struggling at any tapings nor had any information added to their websites or social media.

This is disturbing because the minute a child gets bullied into suicide or a celebrity who is struggling take the final step, then all these people will be on social media crying about how sorry they are and wish they could do something in which case I find to be very hypocritical. Suicide is becoming the number one cause of death. In a few years suicide will over take cancer, heart disease and diabetes as the leading deaths among Americans. At this point it seem like we’re continually putting our heads in the sand until….

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A Shocking Reminder

Here’s a list of celebrities and ordinary people who became famous as a result of their death. I did not add Chester Bennington, Chris Connell, Kate Spade, Marilyn Monroe, Robin Williams or Kurt Cobain because yes their unfortunate untimely deaths are tragic however they are well known. In other words, their names are sonomonist with suicide. My goal is to remind you of the people who aren’t so well known.

If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts or self harm call 911 or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

1 Stuart Adamson 43, musician “Big Country” suicide by hanging (2001)
2 Gia Marie Allemand 29, Reality TV celebrity suicide by hanging (2014)
3 Avicii 28, DJ & music producer suicide by self inflicted injuries (2018)
4 Simone Battle 25, constant on “The X Factor” suicide by hanging (2014)
5 Jadin Bell 15, teenager victim of bullying suicide by hanging (2014)
6 Anthony Bourdain 61, TV personality & chef suicide by hanging (2018)
7 Jonathan Brandis 27, Child actor suicide by hanging (2003)
8 Herman Brood 54, Musician & Painter suicide by jumping (2001)
9 Capital Steez 19, Rapper, musician suicide by jumping (2012)
Steez tweeted his friends & family “I love you” his final tweet “the end”
10 Charlotte Dawson 47, Australian TV personality suicide undisclosed (2014)
11 George Eastman 77, Founder of Eastman Kodak suicide by gunshot (1932)
George suicide note reads “To my friends my work is done, why wait”
12 Mark Fisher 48, Blogger “K-Punk” suicide undisclosed (2017)
13 Keith Flint 49, musician “The Prodigy” suicide by hanging (2019)
14 Ryan Freel 36, sport baseball “KCR” suicide by gunshot (2012)
15 Spalding Gray 62, Actor “Beaches” “Gray’s Anatomy” suicide by jumping (2004)
16 Richard Jeni 49, Comedian suicide by gunshot (2007)
17 Mindy McCready 37, Country music artist suicide by gunshot (2013)
18 Alexander McQueen 40, Fashion designer suicide by hanging (2010)
19 Phoebe Prince 15, Teenager victim of bullying suicide by hanging (2010)
20 David Reimer 38, Transgender reassignment suicide by gunshot (2004)
21 David Foster Wallace 46, Writer suicide by hanging (2018)
22 Lee Thompson Young 29, Actor “Friday Night Lights” suicide by gunshot (2013)
23 Tony Scott 68, Director “Top Gun” suicide by jumping (2012)
24 Jean Stein 83, Author & Editor suicide by jumping (2017)
25 Jon Paul Steuer 33, Actor “Quentin Grace Under Fire” suicide by gunshot (2018)
for full listed referenced in this blog “List of Suicide In The 21st Century”

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I Wear Purple Ribbon

These people are twenty-five out of a thousands plus, a list that continues to grow. As you sit and read this blog one out of five people are contemplating suicide. It’s important to keep spreading the word and breaking the stigma of mental health until there’s no more suicides. I will wear my green ribbon as a reminder to those who lost the battle. I will wear my purple ribbon in solidarity to those left behind. The truth is it doesn’t make much of a difference what ribbon you wear as long as you wear them all. Because these ideas are good bringing light to something as painful. It’s important to represent them ALL!

So, what color are you?

Me, I’m the rainbow.

I wear my Purple and Green ribbons along with Yellow, Black and Pink.

All of them are a presentation of humanity. I wear them all for YOU!

Until Next Time….

UNLIKELY HERO

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Introduction

Hello all you beautiful commanders of words, today post will focus on inspiration. I am a believer of whatever you put out in the cosmos it comes back to you ten folds. If you display bad habit of putting people down that negative vibe will rebound back to you ten times. The goal is to be kind. We’re human and nothing about us is perfect with that being said my inspiration for this piece comes from an unlikely source.

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