I often quote famous movies that inspire my soul, for example “Let Good Thoughts Be Your Sword and Shield” Vida Boheme Too Wong Foo Thanks For Everything Julie Newmar. Or “I’mSorry But Earth Is Closed Today” Iron Man/Tony Stark Avengers Infinity War.In some strange way these quotes often tell a tale of how I’m feeling, you know, very relatable. Stick with me on this. I promise it will make sense in the end. Hello I’m Sunny Larue known as the Professional Martini Drinking Blogger and today’s blog post is inspired by relatable quotes.
(Vraylar is medication used to help with symptoms of bipolarism. You should always consult with a physician or a mental health care professional before taking any type of medication. The makers of Vraylar is not a sponsor nor affiliate of this website or blog)Sunny Larue is not a licensed therapist, physician or health care professional.If you are struggling with thoughts of suicide or self harm dial 911 or contact your physician, therapist or health care professional. You can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at (800) 273-8255for assistance.
INTRODUCTION
The past eighteen months has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions. As twenty-twenty-one comes to an end, I thought about my last blog post of the year. It’s a toss up between my Chum, Covid-19 or the major events of twenty-twenty-one that had my emotions spinning. I decided to be very candid and try to articulate this rollercoaster ride of a year. I hit many peaks some brought on by the events of the year and some brought on by personal events.
Kingda Ka World Tallest Rollercoast 456 feet
Hello all you wizards of words, I’m Sunny Larue known as the Professional Martini Drinking Blogger and today’s blog post is inspired by the constant rollercoaster ride of bipolarism. We all saw the “Vraylar” commercial; (Vraylar is not a sponsor or affiliated with this website and blog) you know the one about the ups and downs of mood swings associated with depression and bipolarism using rollercoaster to articulate the behavior. That’s exactly how I feel. Imagine you’re at an amusement park and the tallest, fastest rollercoaster is this 3 minute giga-coaster with speeds of one hundred mph. You’re anticipating a ride that you think you’re in control of but in reality the whole experience is out of your control.
Music is one way most people struggling with mental health use as a tool to help navigate through dark times. With #covid19 nearly putting an end to touring the only way musicians get recognized is through word or mouth and social media. Please support the music community by purchasing new music and subscribing to their social media and channels. You can also show your support by following their music on streaming platforms such as Spotify, Apple Music or wherever music is streaming.
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INTRODUCTION
What’s in a name? I often wonder why or how people received unique and unusual names. The stories behind nicknames or birth names have always been interesting. I get questioned a lot about both. I’m ready to share how I acquired the nickname of Sunny Larue. Larue is my birth middle name. Yes I know it means “the street” in French but Sunny that’s a story. When asked about my nickname, I give that perfect I’m okay with you being so intrusive smile but really I’m very uncomfortable with your inquiry then my reply “It’s because of my smile”. Truthfully honest I hated both names because both names overtime have become identified with “my chum” aka bipolar. However in time with a lot of therapy and hard work I learned to accept what is giving to me. In this acceptance I taught myself the one rule that prevents the painful outside world into my head space. A rule I recently broke.
Hello all you champions of words, it’s been awhile since my last post. Actually it’s been some weeks since my last post, October 29th to be exact with the (Off The Wagon) post however I feel the need to express myself once again. It’s hard trying to guess where to start. It’s even harder waiting but when it’s all said and done it’s the change that makes or breaks us. I learned this truth living in a post Covid-19 world. Eight months ago life was normal now here’s three principles that play a role in our daily routine; START, WAIT and CHANGE. Today’s blog post is inspired by these words.
The people featured in this blog are of those who struggle with mental health and are no longer with us. Their struggle has helped bring awareness to Bullying, Anxiety, Depression. These people are faces of suicide. If you or you know someone in a crisis, having thoughts of suicide or self harm call 911 immediately or contact The National Suicide Prevention Hotline at (800) 273-8255 (24/7 – 365 days) Together we can break the stigma of mental health. To check out these amazing people and how their struggle impacted our lives click on the links below.
Marion Aye (actress)
April 5, 1903 – July 21, 1951
*suicide by poison* Distressed over her film career, Marion will make several attempts. That summer she took a bottle of bi-chloride of mercury tablets dying eleven days later in a Los Angeles Hospital.
Her last words to her husband were: “I dropped one of the tablets on the floor and I’m afraid the dog will get it.” She was 48.
Capital Steelz (rapper)
July 7, 1993 – Dec 24, 2012
*suicide by jumping*
“The End” last Tweet post 11:59 pm EST on December 24, 2012 shortly after Capital Steez jumped from the top of Cinematic Music Group HQ in Manhattan to his death. He was 19
Leelah Alcorn (transgender teen)
Nov 15, 1997 – Dec 28, 2014
*suicide struck by semi-truck on interstate 71*
excerpts from suicide note post to Tumblr “People say “it gets better” but that isn’t true in my case. It gets worse. Each day I get worse. That’s the gist of it, that’s why I feel like killing myself. Sorry if that’s not a good enough reason for you, it’s good enough for me.” In the early morning of December 28th Leelah walked onto Interstate 71 and was struck by a semi-truck
She was 17
Jonathan Brandis (actor)
April 13, 1976 – Nov 12, 2003
*suicide by hanging* Jonathan didn’t leave a note but friends did state prior to his death he drank heavily and was depressed over his career. He also talked of ending his life. He was 27.
INTRODUCTION
Today I cried to point I couldn’t cry anymore. If only I could’ve been there to help. If only I knew what to say. I would plead my case in the hopes of having my desperate pleads heard. If only he could see the tears of pain begging him to stay. If only I can tell him how much he is loved.
Hello, I’m Sunny Larue known as the professional martini drinking blogger and diagnosed with bipolar. For my last blog post of twenty-nineteen, I thought I would finish a draft from summer where struggling with my mental state was very apparent. It’s no secret that one major contributing factors to my triggers is work related. This episode is a result of the stress of dealing with a workplace bully, unorganization of a temporary desk move and the loud sound of office renovation. Because of the chaos, I couldn’t jot down my thoughts in my journal instead I used post-it-notes and paper napkins. Once I pieced together my thoughts this blog took shape. Apologizing in advance my thoughts were all over the place. This happens when one is in the throws of a full blown bipolar episode.
The six little-known warning signs of mental health issues: 1. Out of character behaviors 2. Changes in appetite 3. Struggling with simple daily tasks 4. Frequent headaches or backaches 5. Always feeling guilty 6. Negative self-talk
Hello all you boo-static masters of words, today’s blog comes from one of my favorite independant actors and human activist Dave Vescio. Influenced by Dave’s twitter account, I thought it would be fun to answer some of Dave’s most intriguing questions. But before diving into these questions, here’s a little background on how Dave’s rags to wealth story came to light influencing a generation.
September is National Suicide Prevention month. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts or self-harm seek help immediately by dialing 911 or local emergency service or calling National Suicide Prevention Lifeline hotline 800-273-8255.
Hello all you freedom writers, today’s blog comes courtesy of unlikely and unconventional inspirational moments. When you think of inspiration most people think positive thinking or positive feelings or a special personal memory that feels them up with joy however, after spending time alone on isolation island, I found these inspirational moments aren’t as positive but more dark in nature. I need to understand where this unhealthy destructive behavior began and how to better manage my Chum because my episodes are getting more frequently intense.
Hello all you keepers or words, today blog post hits a bit closer to home as it involves dealing with mental health specifically my diagnosis. I have been very open about my bipolar disorder in doing so blogging about something that is so personal it’s hard I’m not going to lie but being on this constant rollercoaster ride trying to seek answers to new questions it’s tough. Through therapy and support I learned some valuable tools that helps when in the mist of an episode.
This blog is based upon my personal perspective and experience dealing with a disorder.
The research of this blog is for informational purpose.
I am not a doctor or a license healthcare worker.
If you are experiencing thoughts of suicide or self harm call 911 immediately.
Hello champions of words, today blog is quite unique in the guides that I followed advice from a dear friend who told me to write down your thoughts no matter what then when ready come back and visit. This is that blog. When I started the few sentences, I was coming out of an episode trying to connect back to familiar surroundings. At this point it has been eight days since I had a visit from my Chum. Its a strange thing what inspired me to write this down. Someone asked me specifically how is my mental health. The conversation started off innocently but I realized there’s so many misconception of bipolar.
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