My big brother, so gentle, so kind taught me how to ride a bike zoom, zoom flying down the big hill we go. My big brother, so lovable, so wise taught me how to count 1,2,3,4,5. My big brother so fun, so sweet he sits next to me when I am sick reading to me my favorite book so neat. My big brother, so warm, so endearing loves to give big hugs squeezing tightly like a bear hugging a tree ugh I can’t breathe. One day my big brother stopped being so gentle, so kind. He stopped being so lovable, so wise. The big brother I come to know the one who taught me all I know cease to exist.
My big brother, who listens to the voices inside his head tells him to do bad things. My big brother, consumed by hallucinations & delusions sits in his dark room confused & withdrawn from the world. My big brother a victim of “schizophrenia”, a word so big & hard to pronounce this baby sister is powerless to stop the dark. My big brother whom I adore sits alone in the dark facing every hellish nightmare, the noise too loud for him to ignore.
Fight you must fight to keep your mind I say, but mental illness doesn’t work that way. You see the voices now controls his every mood. My family once full of life is scared to move. One step out of place we will see schizophrenia ugly face. It’s a dance I rather not participate. The love I have will always remain no matter what face schizophrenia say it claims. I love all of my big brother the dark, the insane & the good. This baby sisters misses her big brother.
This short story is inspired by mental illness awareness. One out of five people will suffer from mental illness. We all are affected one way by someone who suffers from schizophrenia, bipolar & other mental disease. We must show compassion, patience & love to help our loved one deal with this disease. For more information on mental illness or need assistance please click on the link👉👉 Mental Health Services.
Please show your support for my friend Nicole Carmen. Her website (Navigating Darkness) deals with the subject of mental illness. Her blogs are vivid on how she if affected by mental illness & she and advocate for mental illness awareness. You can follow her on social media (ItsNicoleCarmen). And check out her project for Mental Awareness & how you can participate (The Mental Health Awareness Project) & twitter (officialMHAP).
Until next time…..
For more reads in my Confessions of a Depressive Mind Series try these…..
Repair My Armor
Crying In The Shadows
Confessions of a Depressed Mind
Over The Hump
Welcome to the Dance
In the Trenches
Diary of a Manic Depressive
Bite Your Lips
Chicken Soup for the Soul
The High Card
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